Thursday, October 18, 2007

it's been a long time....

Thank God for school!!! Kenzie has an awesome teacher this year. She does her homework without me asking.
How sweet is that!

Sanity has made a visit in our home. I seemed to hit my wall. I was so very angry. I truly hated myself too.
Therapy helps but i finally found myself truly in physical pain. I truly hated to ask.... Did I need medication?
I remember dreading the Dr. visit I felt like I had failed myself and my family... I wept in the Dr.'s office. I did not want to medicate! I did not want to rely on a pill for the rest of my life....

but to save myself I swallowed that damned pill. A very large part of me was so very ashamed. I had taken meds on my youth and it went badly. so far so good I am able to say that i am medicated in a slightly self deprecating way but i can now say it.

i could be much crazier.... but i'm not.

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The Lassen Family said...

So glad to see your posting again! I know how much the meds have helped me --I manifest with anger myself, they are not happy pills, but they sure keep the demons away :) Love you guys --dani

October 21, 2007 at 11:14 AM

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